Last night I had, its more of a dream but it definitely had the scaffolding of a nightmare, regarding Stef. Nothing too crazy happened, if anything, only one thing happened. I got a letter from her. The letter was several pages long. A good bulk of it was song recommendations complete with album images and a small note next to each song. Apparently she's been busy with shows, open mics, other friends, and was about to release her album. Between every update or so regarding her status, song recommendations would be woven in. I was kind of surprised to see a Marilyn Manson song. I don't think she would listen to him much if at all but I have no way of truly knowing her experiences like that, or anyone for that matter. There was also a Colin Stetson song with a request at the bottom to not leak Patreon songs. I found that odd since Colin Stetson doesn't gatekeep his material much if at all, but I shrugged it off and kept reading. There was also a Timmy song called, "Though the Stars May Fall," and after waking up I checked, no its not real but you never know what elaborate joke they have up their sleeve. At the end of the letter its finally revealed that the friendship is in fact over and a request for me to not attend her shows going forward. I sat at my desk and stared at the wall for a long time. My eyes were wet but nothing would come out. I must have sat their for a while. My mouth went dry and my limbs went numb. I didn't move from that spot. When the letter hit the ground, I woke up. I have a rule about telling people as soon as possible if I dream about them but out of respect for Stef needing space, this one will be shelved. It's been over two months since we last spoke. W O R R Y.
I forgot to tell Cindy Happy Birthday but luckily Nate covered for me and said I did. Whew!
Kaitlyn has requested more assistance for moving so I shall oblige. I hope we're more productive today than Sunday. Not to say we weren't productive Sunday, but we realistically could have done more. She also wants me to take custody of her Thanos. I will treat Thanos with the love and respect he deserves. I genuinely find it so funny to see him standing on the tv stand everytime I visit her.
Once I finish Cintas Rojas, I will email Mr. T again. He never responded to the one in march. Maybe he's also tired of me. That remains to be seen.
I am almost done planning the logistics for a secret fan art for the wonderful, Pacing. She was the opener for Cheekface this year. She recently released an album called, "Pl*net F*tness," and I love it! Its personal, funny, and sounds pretty?? Leading up to the release of the album, she did a live auction with a WHEEL OF WONDER!!! When the wheel spins, a copy of her album on Vinyl would be up for purchase along with a bonus. This includes test presses, stickers, shirts, alt colors, and most importantly, a custom song. Extra money from the event would be donated to help with immigration legal funds. I'll look up the exact group later. Anyhoo, the final prize was the custom song and I was able to snag it!! The contents of the song are a secret but I want to give her art to coorelate with the song! Heh heh.